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Inspirational? Me, Now that's funny...


Some days the most inspirational thing I do, is get out of bed, and that is usually an effort the past six months or so.....But a couple of people have told me that over the past year.   I strongly disagree with them and keep on keeping on. 

I was telling someone, at the beginning of the cancer map...you have so many decisions to make you don't really have time to dwell on the negative aspect of things.   For me, I KNEW this was not going to take me out.....That I HAVE to be around to watch my daughter graduate from high school.   That I HAVE to be here to see the future grand babies my son and daughter in love are going to give me....

Was it all sunshine and roses, heck no.....I had days where I cried and cried..   But there were definitely more good than bad. I went back to work to keep my mind busy as soon as possible (good medicine for me).  I prayed for good results at every step....I think God has a plan for me.   Not sure what that is yet, but I have felt led all thru this process.   More on that at a later date. 

I don't want this to be strictly a "cancer" blog - GOSH how depressing would that be?!  But it did teach me a few things I think we should all remember.   Life is short.....Very cliche' I know.   But also very true.   I told myself after I got thru this, I was going to do things a little differently.   I say "no" more often....I try "new" things more often (yoga).   I tell people I "love" them more.  I also tell people when I don't, lol....My filter has gotten less - but why waste time on the minutia - let's get to the point.   I have NO time for the passive aggressive soul...and I might even call you out on that nonsense.  I try to have more "fun".   That's right, fun!  My circle is small, but mighty.  Cancer taught me who I can count on beyond any shadow of a doubt.   Thank you my unsung husband, Jack.....He helped me shower, emptied drains, helped me dress, let me cry, let me yell, let me have the break downs.  He was at every appointment prior to surgery.  Thank you my mother, she kept my house running, and babied me to wellness once again.   So so many more, my kids, my brother and sister, my friends, my medical staff, my work people.   All had and continue to have an important spot in my life. 

Today was my Annual Survivor Check Up, all is well.   Great words for my ears :)  We talked about the final steps on my reconstruction.....Tattoos...More on that later too....But the smile was cemented on my face today remembering how far I've come, and how much further I want to go in this life

Cancer is mean, but so am I :) 

October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month - I'm aware, bet you are too - Now let's find a cure folks!!  Early Detection is Key but dang it let's find a CURE!!!! 




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