Oh so many decisions to make. It's hard. What do you do? I've been overwhelmed with information, testing, testimonials, statistics.....What do you do? The doctors don't want to sway you one way or the other. It's got to be YOUR choice.
For me, my options were lumpectomy with radiation, or mastectomy. We are unsure about chemo at this point.
My mind was made up for the the most part, prior to getting the genetic testing results. But that just confirmed it for me. For me, there is an elevated risk for almost all cancers.
Bi-Lateral Mastectomy it is. I'm opting for reconstruction - which is a future post all on it's own.
I had to give up nicotine for the plastic surgeon I wanted to even consider doing the recon, but I'm 3 weeks Nicotine free now.....But I digress.
I gave my decision to the surgeon last week. He agreed. I talked to my GP about it, he told me it is what he'd recommend to his wife, so that made me feel better.
If I have to go through this, I only want to do it once. The lumpectomy could fix the left breast possibly with no issue, but what about the other breast? What's to say I wouldn't be in the same boat in a year or two? No, I cannot do this again. I am not that strong.
So that being said, I now have outpatient surgery to biopsy the Sentinel Lymph Node (more about that here) SLNB. Then I am to come back on the 6th of September for results (please pray they are good) and Surgery date.
I have this fear of losing all things that make me me (again my friends would argue that with me) - but Chemo and losing my Hair, oh gosh, I don't know if I can handle losing my boobs and hair, lol.....I know it sounds incredibly vain. But hey, maybe I am vain. We are who we are.
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